My wife and I went through a long-distance period when we were dating. I used porn as a masturbatory aid during that time. I did not tell her, as she believes that porn use is equivalent to cheating. Fast-forward a couple years (and a marriage), and I let it slip that I had watched some porn during the times we were apart. She flew off the handle, and ever since then insists that we can't have children because I'm a pedophile for watching porn that may or may not have contained women acting like teenagers. She literally yells at me in public if my gaze goes anywhere near girls or women she perceives to be younger than she is. The same goes for watching TV, looking at magazines, you name it. A lot of this stems from her best friend's cousin, who worked with people in the porn industry and seduced underage girls into sexual acts. To her, watching porn is the same as what this guy did. Until my admission, she assumed I was a good person. How do I convince her I am the same person she fell in love with and get her to put aside this irrational fear?
Sincerely Not A Pedophile
There's just one thing you should be trying to convince your wife of right now, SNAP: You aren't gonna put up with her bullshit anymore. So gather your things together — don't forget your balls — and move out.
This conflict has nothing to do with porn, or your character, or your wife's best friend's cousin. (Whatever the fuck to that rationalization.) The issue is that you made the mistake of marrying a controlling, irrational, abusive psycho. Begging and pleading with your wife only demonstrates that you'll take whatever she dishes out.
Get out. Leave. Don't look back.
Want a second opinion? I posted your letter to my blog, and here's what one of the more astute commenters had to say: "This is what happens when you marry someone you already know you have to lie and cheat to be with. She set her conditions plainly — she feels porn use is evil. You knew you were fine with porn use and used it yourself. You should have broken up then and there. ... Break up now and find someone who accepts you for who you are."
There you go: This advice columnist and an anonymous commenter agree that you have to leave. Being alone — and being free to enjoy porn — is better than being with someone like your wife. But if you must stay with this woman for reasons you don't list (does she have any redeeming qualities?), you will have to tell her what she wants to hear: You did a terrible thing (you didn't), you're an addict (you're not), you have a problem (you don't). Find a therapist for some confidential sessions, talk about the weather, then tell your wife that you've been cured and will never look at porn — or other women — again.
But even if you never look at porn ever again — which isn't likely — your spouse will find something else to blow up about. If you don't DTMFA now, you're gonna have to DTMFA at some point.
My husband and I had been in the market for some Japanese bondage rope and finally found a kit we liked. The day before it arrived, I found out I was pregnant. The pregnancy means we probably won't be able to use the ropes for a long time. I don't think I can wait. Are there any resources that can give us some guidance in safe practices, or should we play it vanilla until the baby arrives?
Bondage With Baby
If you go to BabyCenter.com and search "safe to ski while pregnant," you'll find a post that says skiing is safe enough during the first two trimesters and highly unlikely to harm the fetus — barring a major accident. (Skiing is obviously no-go during the third trimester.) Mary Lake Polan, chair emeritus of the department of gynecology and obstetrics at Stanford University School of Medicine, included this in her response to the skiing-while-pregnant question: "[The] baby is very well protected in the uterus — it usually takes a car accident or major trauma to harm the baby."
I've never been pregnant, but I snowboard and I have been tied up — and snowboarding is a lot more physically taxing. Twisted Monk, the bondage expert and hemp-rope merchant (twistedmonk.com), advises couples who want to do bondage while one partner is pregnant to stick to "limb ties" (rope around arms and legs, no rope around torsos and breasts). Hardcore BDSMers are advised to avoid serious pain and/or fear play, as both can release stress hormones; fetal exposure to stress hormones has been linked to low birth weight, restricted blood flow to the uterus and adult mood disorders.
So stick to limb ties only, avoid scary fear-play scenes, and don't let your husband tie you up in a moving car.
I have been married for 26 years. We have not been intimate for the last 11 years. I have been going to a sex therapist to deal with this issue. My wife says that she will make an appointment but does not follow through. She now has informed me that she never wants to have sex again. It seems strange to leave this marriage over sex, but what options do I have?
Sexless Husband Is Troubled
You're not a regular reader, are you? If you were, you would know that your options are hiring sex workers, cheating on your wife (but it hardly counts as cheating, as you're not cheating your wife out of anything she wants), or seeing other women with your wife's permission. Go ask your wife what she wants — an open marriage or a failed one? — and make your move(s).
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