The first time I saw Taylor Swift live, I was a freshman in high school. I was 15, a very important age for Swift fans. In the song, “Fifteen,” Swift sings about feeling everything, without being old enough to know just how much else is out there. I probably cried to it a dozen times.
At the Pittsburgh stop of her Reputation tour, I didn’t feel the connection I used to, but there were plenty of people, many of them 15, that did. There were throngs of young girls in costumes and DIY shirts: gold letters on a black tee that said “hug me Taylor,” a glittery sign hanging on a girl’s neck that said “handle with care: delicate,” another girl adorned with tide pods and a sign that said “TAYpods.”
The massive, elaborate show at Heinz Field was her fifth performance at the stadium, she announced. She opened with “… Ready For It?” the second single from Reputation that plays like an essential oil diffuser with a drop of hip-hop oil.
The song is meant to set the tone for the rest of the album, which is generally about love, revenge, bad reputations, haters, dresses. She wants her longterm fans and critics alike to know that she’s an adult now, and will behave as such, by wearing black lipstick and singing about old fashioneds.
The tide ultimately turned for Swift when Kim Kardashian revealed with video evidence that Swift lied about something involving Kanye (too long to get into, Google it.). Kim fans/Taylor critics started leaving snake emojis all over her Instagram, and it morphed into a multi-platform meme of calling Swift a snake. And so, the Reputation tour is aggressively snake-themed. The seating area at the very front of the stage is the “snake pit.” Animated snakes curl around the Jumbotron screen. Her microphone is wrapped in a gold snake. At one point, a massive animatronic cobra emerged from the stage, then two more, with glowing red eyes. At another point, a snake skeleton sculpture emerged, and she climbed onto it.
She’s above criticism in that she’ll never listen to or grow from it. Instead of understanding that the snake comes from annoyance about her self-victimization, she twists it into a kitschy monstrosity that veers from “oh, that’s cool” to “oh, more snakes again.”
But she’s been playing big crowds for over a decade and the woman is a damn professional.
There were quick outfit changes, each one more sparkly than the last. She sang on a moving carriage that glided over the crowd. There were fireworks and literal fire shooting from the stage, big enough to radiate heat onto the crowd. The entire audience was given large Fitbit-like bracelets that lit up on a synchronized schedule, turning the stadium into a sea of red, pink, white.
There were moments that reminded me of that time when I was 15, like when she played “A Place in this World,” a song from her debut 2006 album which, according to setlist.fm, she hasn’t played live since 2009. And whoever her fans are, she always maintains an ability to make them feel special. Those bracelets, she told the crowd, were because she wanted to be able to see every single person in the audience. “You guys are like, a dream crowd,” she said and I remembered when I was 15 and she said, “D.C, I will never forget the way you made me feel tonight.”
Before the show started, screens played clips of a time before Reputation, when Swift invited super-fans, weeping and squealing, to her various homes for a special pre-release gathering as they declared eternal love and gratitude for her. Later, when walking through a crowd barrier, she grabbed hands desperately jutting from the crowd, like a religious leader generously blessing her subjects with a touch.
In front of me, there was a teenager who seemed to be at the show alone. In a custom Reputation denim jacket with ’13’ written on the back of her hand (important Swift number), she started weeping immediately when Swift started playing “Long Live” on the piano. The girl next to her, also alone, joined and they relished in it together. A woman behind them chimed in to say that this song always makes her cry, too.
On “Look What You Made Me Do,” the first single from Reputation, she sings “I’m sorry, the old Taylor can’t come to the phone right now … ’cause she’s dead.” But clearly, the part of her persona that makes audiences feel special, that makes them sing and cry and violently emote, is not dead. She’s just gotten lost in the sparkly and fiery spectacle of her own mythology.
This article appears in 08-01-2018.
LMAO, you take her “the old Taylor is dead” image on ‘Reputation’ way too seriously. You sound like one of those people who thought she was trying to dance well in the ‘Shake It Off’ video. Or one of those people who thought she wasn’t trying to make ‘We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together’ annoying with the use of ‘like’ and ‘ever’, even though she said she was. What criticism is she ignoring, anyway? Kanye only played her half the lyrics, and the half she heard wasn’t the half she got mad about. He never played her the full song or video. Kanye himself said the conversation was an hour long, so why did they only release two minutes of it? She very well could have warned him not to release it in the edited out portion. Now, Taylor is doing what she has always done, listening to her fans. She took a cyberbullying symbol and turned it into a great business plan. You’re so naive if you actually believe everything you read about her. You put her on a pedestal, then acted like it was her fault that she couldn’t live up to your expectations. She’s a human being, and she’s been trying to tell people that for her whole career. People make mistakes, and she’s made less than most. If Kanye was in the same position as Taylor was then, nobody would care after about two weeks. You know why? Because he has cultivated an image where you’d expect that kind of thing from him. Taylor hasn’t, so the one time she lies, people talk about it for over two years. Even if you want to say it was stirred up leading up to ‘Reputation’, before that, people still spammed snake emojis on every Taylor Swift article. She’s a human, who happens to be a songwriter. So, she wrote songs about it like every songwriter writes about their life. If you think people can’t make mistakes or songwriters can’t write about their lives, you need to grow up. She isn’t a god. Stop acting like she should be the perfect example of the human race. She doesn’t owe you or anyone else that.